3,100 Miles to Oregon
Not getting picked is a kind of answer. So is driving 3,100 miles toward something that might.…
When Suicide Can Seem Logical
Suicide prevention messaging is not written for the person it claims to be talking to. I know this because I was that person, and I was there when it failed me.…
When God Wants You Dead
I was sitting in a circle with my peers on the fall retreat, a Friday night, sometime around 1am. My youth pastor was in our small group. I had been processing suicidal thoughts for months. I asked him whether someone killing themselves could be part of God's plan.…
Nothing That Anyone Would Call Something
Youth institutions don't fail by accident. The design makes certain harms invisible and that invisibility is load-bearing.…
Threat Models Need To Survive the Real World
Security that isn't pointed at something real will expand to fill whatever time and attention you give it, and other things fall behind.…
Metadata and The Shadow Biography
Your messages are scrambled, but your identity has never been clearer. We are living in an era of "Visible Secrets," where the lock on the door is real, but the walls are made of glass.…
The Privacy Tax is a Systemic Problem
When my university transitioned to digital student IDs, they chose Apple Wallet and Google Wallet as the only supported options. I daily-drive GrapheneOS specifically to avoid Google services while maintaining high-end hardware security. My phone is more than capable of storing a digital ID securely, but because I don’t…
Pilot Rock Night Hike
I was going through some of my older projects and this was the first time I took out my Canon R8 for a night shoot in November, 2024. The view from the top of Pilot Rock was amazing. View Larger Map…